~Pam is me~

My life, I could have made it better, but what is 'better'? This is confusing.

It seems lacking and a little shame. But I'm too lazy to desire 'a change' in anything even if I could turn back time. There's no way that I would start it all over again. And people will still say whatever they want.

 

So I guess I'm satisfied enough with thing as it is. All that's matter is I live as the way I am. 

 

Who makes the rule that human should be ambitious? Why? It's such a nuisance.

Struggling is tiring especially when the final prize is meaninngless to you. 

 

Don't you see that we are living in the world where Jealousy is just a lie; where Happiness is brief and Grief is strangely bearable if you try?

 

Have I tried...? 

 

Yes, I think I did when I had no choice.

 

 

Tonight is long, and I'm alone... as always... in blissful isolation.